I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN
I have been struggling lately to be positive. You probably know by now that I am a really positive human being. However, things have changed since the last month and a half. I have been on bed-rest for a herniated disc. Meaning I have been banned (literally) from climbing stairs, bending forward, picking up heavy stuff….. and since I can’t stand or sit for too long, I have not been able to do any photography work. I think of all the things I love to do like travelling to the mountains, dancing, driving long distance, going out and ofcourse photography … everything seems to be over. ☹️
I keep thinking I will be fine soon but the doc keeps postponing my coming back to normal….. I am hoping it’s a phase and I will get out of it eventually but for the time being I feel hopeless and I am demotivated.
I believe it is a warning from God to 'slow down'. I was doing 1000 things; architecture, teaching, photography, music, travelling besides trying to raise my daughter and doing other daily chores. It’s like as you get older you realise time is short so you want to do so many things. But your body says ‘no way I can't cope’.
I used to think I was superwoman! But I am not, I am just human.
So for someone who is always trying to be productive, I could not not do nothing. To stay sane I have been trying to work while in bed, from my phone and laptop but it’s not easy. I started learning about Instagram dynamics and stuff. It’s mind boggling I tell you. I’ve also been sharing old photo projects that I forgot existed.
They say there are always positive things coming out of negative experiences. I have been looking at my own work and re- evaluating it. I’ve been looking at my life and re-evaluating it. When you are in such a position you start thinking if the work you are doing is really what you love doing. Is it all worth it?
I will say this that I have nothing to be ungrateful for, even for what I am going through at the moment. I have lived a full life, been there done that, there is nothing to regret but yes there are still dreams to be achieved.
However, it is time to take it easy. I know there may be many of you going through hardships in life, or are feeling stuck. Don't lose hope. These phases come and go but we can overcome them, and it is with this thought in mind that I believe we must go on. We must not forget our dreams, but pursue them, one step at a time.
At the end of the day I know I am not superwoman, but I am bloody awesome. : )
So are you. Don't you forget it.
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